Like I said in post 3, when we broke and I got home was alone and what have you, the truth is that I didn’t feel any pain to shed a tear or better still cry.. I was really calm about it even tho I was angry and wished I could have inflicted pains on him really bad and all, yet I didn’t cry for losing him.. He was the love of my life no doubt but I had trained my emotions so hard to withstand pain. I had this notion that no matter how much a man will love and cherish you, he will still hurt you and the painful one’s are usually from people who we love.
